I need to be COLOURFUL.

2006 i miss the times when we were so obedient towards discipline.
2006 i miss the times when we get to know new frens.
2006 i miss the times when everything's new n fresh.
2006 i miss the times when i feel shy in school.
2006 i miss the times when pey yan n lilien were still in skul.
2006 i miss the times when a bunch of lick hung students sticked to each other n go everywhere together like a swarm of bees.
2006 i miss the times when i get much attention because im the sister of a popular sister.
2006 i miss the times when im always in top 10 in class.
2006 i miss the times when i was in choir.. GREASE!
2006 i miss the times when i can't speak fluent english n malay.
2006 i miss the times when i was still in scouts.
2006 i miss the times when beng way, ben tan, isaac n ben wong were always around after skul.
2006 i miss the times when clement chee khai ming was around.
2006 i miss the times having a very chubby face.

2007 i miss the times when i was so very particular with my hair.
2007 i miss the times when flirty sweet butterflies are everywhere. (if u get what i mean)
2007 i miss the times when more n more known faces are around.
2007 i miss the times when my mouth was chocolatery. (if u get what i mean again)
2007 i miss the times when remix kaki lang was formed.
2007 i miss the times when i change scrunchy every few days.
2007 i miss the times when we were all afternoon session's "seniors"
2007 i miss the times when the monster feels she has the whole aft. ses. in her hand.
2007 i miss the times when im always in the top 5 in class.
2007 i miss the times when i was in choir.. Mamma Mia.
2007 i miss the times when shauna n i were close.
2007 i miss the times hanging out with Yuan ping, going shopping aimlessly n ponteng just to chit chat.
2007 i miss the times when i don't feel THAT shy anymore.
2007 i miss the times when i had to struggle between these 2 guys. (not gonna name them here)
2007 i miss the times when i was with Lam,he fed me roti canai in usj2 mamak.
2007 i miss the times receiving many many valentine n birthday gifts.
2007 i miss the times being with Chen. honestly, oh so very much.
2007 i miss the times looking forward to skul ends, hoping n praying that He'll stand at the guard hse waiting for me. just to pass me a letter or a note, or maybe just a smile.
2007 i miss the times hiding from discipline teachers because of my inappropriate fringe.
2007 i miss the times when 2 Budi were so united.
2007 i miss the times when miss Kamal was around.
2007 i miss the times practicing choral speaking which everyone is excited for.
2007 i miss the times having short hair, n it became a trend after that. hoho!
2007 i miss the times having a chubby face.

2008 i miss the times being a junior once again in the morning session.
2008 i miss the times having so many form 5 frens near end of the year.
2008 i miss the times when the threesomes-the Triple Fantasy (hoho!) were always together,ditching our recess mates,having our own time together during recess every one day per week.
2008 i miss the times singing Someday We'll Know with zhili,hsien yoong,eugene.
2008 i miss the times when HIS story begins.
2008 i miss the times when the ♥ flower started to bloom.
2008 i miss the times when Kenneth n Abby-the Laus were still around. going to each other's houses to watch movie n chit chat.
2008 i miss the times when Tse Yuen, Hsien Yoong, Carlson, Eugene were still around.
2008 i miss the times when school life seems so perfect.
2008 i miss the times when im one of the smartest in class.
2008 i miss the times sitting at the rear corner of the class, having a bunch of buddies await your presence, just to fool n joke around with you.
2008 i miss the times seeing n peeping on a guy in full-white uniform passing by my class.
2008 i miss the times when he send me cereals, lovely notes, chocolates every alternate days.
2008 i miss the times when i have a motif (seeing tat guy in full white) to go to school.
2008 i miss the times when homeworks were so easy n little.
2008 i miss the times having Pj when im always the only one who's excited when the other girls are not.
2008 i miss the times when ming yeaw used to play with my bulu n keep asking the same repeated question:" y do u have so much hair?"
2008 i miss the times having short hair again.
2008 i miss the times having seni as a compulsory period n test.
2008 i miss the times studying n revising occasionally.
2008 i miss the times being 38 kg.
2008 i miss the times having a thin body but a chubby face.

2009 i don't like the times trying so hard getting used to everything that's new-studies,class,classmates,teachers,language that we speak in class,ppl.
2009 i don't like the times when sorrow n insecurity take place.
2009 i don't like the times holding back my cries when i'm already crying terribly inside.
2009 i don't like the times when He's not in school.
2009 i don't like the times when friends are setting apart.
2009 i don't like the times when physics,chemistry,add maths,maths are ridiculously un-understandable.
2009 i don't like the times having tons of homeworks.
2009 i don't like the times being in the most top class.
2009 i don't like the times being the dumbest n slowest in class.
2009 i don't like the times when emily,rushan n diane leave early n come back late from recess.
2009 i don't like the times rushing homeworks every day n night.
2009 i don't like the times having homework unfinished n drag it to the next day, the next next day, the next next next day. .....
2009 i don't like the times having so many extra classes n tuitions.
2009 i don't like the times having only one thing in mind everyday after school-homework.

2009 has been a really rough year so far.
i don't usually do homeworks during the holidays.
but guess what, i've been a nerd this whole time.
all i've been doing is homework, homework n homeworks..

i'm not really proud of who i am right now.
my parents might be but not me myself.
i was a way jolly n bubbly girl back in form 1-3.
but form 4, uh-uh.. not a minute u could just laze on the couch n day dream which i used to do that very often few yrs back.
i used to be the lazier one compare to my elder sis.
surprisingly, im working ten times harder than her now.
cuz' being in a class surrounded by smart asses is really stressful n horrifying!!!
some people said im working too hard.
what can i do?
protest? complain? boikot?

i've been really grateful for whatever i have now, except homeworks..
cuz i missed those chances appreciating great things n ppl that have happened to me last few yrs.

i need rest.

i wana watch tv
i wana play ps2
i wana update my blog every alternate days

all these are hardly possible right now.

can i freeze time?
or maybe turn back time?
i need doraemon n his time machine. :(

2006-2008 i miss the ponteng times.

STRICTLY NOT to encourage tat ponteng is gud!!! just that it's so precious to me nowadays n that's one of the best things in high school. but no more this year. it just disappeared from my dictionary.

the word ' study ' is bolder n bigger, n it seems to appear in every pages of my dictionary.


everything is fading away this year.
even the Colours of life are fading.

smarties became

colourless.


so m i..


don't kill that smile. :(


someone.. colour me!